"i dont know, i dont know."
#I DO #I KNOW #never getting over what a stupid answer to that question that was nick #because what why couldn’t you say yes or no? #either laugh it off #say like ‘yeah of course if i were eight years younger’ #or ‘nooo he’s a good guy but we’d only ever be friends’ #BE SERIOUS OR LAUGH IT OFF NICK GRIMSHAW YOU DON’T ANSWER A QUESTION LIKE THAT WITH WISTFUL NOT-SURE-NESS #okay i’m projecting the wistful but i mean i think i’m okay to #EVASIVE FUCK #EVASIVE STUPID GODDAMN FUCK #IN WHAT WORLD IS THAT AN ANSWER YOU CAN GIVE #FFS #FFFFFFFFFFFFS #I DON’T KNOW #FUCK YOU NICK GRIMSHAW (x)
#in my mind the ‘I don’t know’ is to protect Harry tbh #like I have a grand scheme for them where they mutually accept they can’t be together while 1d is so big #so they’ve decided to put it aside for now #have one of those ‘in 10 years if we’re both still single we’ll get married’ pacts #bc ofc they’re realistic they know there’s a large possibility that in 10 years they won’t be single at all #but Harry’s so young and so fragile and his entire life could be altered if he comes out (or if he’s outted) #so nick lets himself seem the one who is out there #the one who is sighing after the unattainable Harry Styles #unrequited popstar love #because Nick loves Harry and he knows exactly what his answer to that question is #but no one is really ready for the answer (x)
#beth just pointed out something important #about how the ‘i don’t know’ is to protect harry #and i love how nick does it all the time #even during the call or delete #where sam almost blabbers something about harry being ….. something (we don’t hear buwe can guess) #and nick diverts the conversation #nick makes fun of harry a lot #but when it comes to the serious questions he always answers in a way that protects harry #i love him (x)
#no absolutely not #no no no no #MY EMOTIONS ARE TOO FRAGILE #BECAUSE IN PROTECTING HARRY NICK TAKING ALL THE HEAT # HE’S ALSO TAKING A GAMBLE #BECAUSE HARRY’S SO YOUNG #HE COULD STILL EVOLVE AWAY FROM NICK #THEY COULD DRIFT APART #BUT NICK IS TAKING THAT CHANCE AND HE IS LETTING HARRY DO ALL THE THINGS HE’S GOTTA DO AND IF HE COMES BACK TO HIM #THAT’S GOOD #AND IF HE DOESN’T #THAT’S LIFE (ziusik)
#WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING #EVERY TIME THIS GETS BACK ON MY DASH ITS EXPONENTIALLY FUCKING WORSE THAN THE TIME BEFORE #BC WHAT IF HARRY DOES KIND OF EVOLVE AWAY #NOT IN A BAD WAY #BUT BC THATS WHAT PEOPLE DO SOMETIMES #AND NICK IS OK W IT #HE STILL LOVES HARRY BUT THATS JUST PART OF HIM NOW #ITS BUILT INTO HIS HEART AND HE WOULDNT TRY TO MAKE IT STOP #BUT ONE DAY #WHEN NICKS HOME #W PUPPY AND HIS NEWER DOG CALLED DOG #AND THE KITTEN CALLED MOUSE #THE BELL RINGS #AND ITS HARRY #OLDER #BUT STILL HARRY #AND HE SMILES #AND SAYS #SO #LOOKS LIKE ITS BEEN TEN YEARS #HOW ‘BOUT IT (x)
Harry and Lou at Jay’s wedding - 7/20
IS NIALL HARRYS +1 ? ???
I WANT TO FISTFIGHT SOMEONE. I WANT TO GO OUTSIDE AND START PUNCHING AND WHOEVER GETS IN MY LINE OF PUNCHING IS GETTING PUNCHED. I COULD TEAR 20 PHONE BOOKS IN HALF WITH MY TEETH. I’LL STOMP TWO HOLES IN THE GROUND UNTIL I’M IN THE CENTER OF THE EARTH. I’M GONNA SCREAM SO LOUD THAT THE PARALLEL UNIVERSE OF THE EARTH WHERE THIS HAS HAPPENED WILL HEAR ME. I CAN’T DO THIS AND I NEVER COULD.
WHY DOES HARRY EVEN BUTTON THE LAST THREE
harry looks like hes attending the funeral of a previous sugardaddy
HE IS DANCING WITH THE GUESTS
I’M NOT OKAY